When I write my blogs in pink it usually means I'm happy about something. I wouldn't say I'm happy with my new path, but I can tell you I will embrace it and love life again, although I don't think I ever really stopped.
I woke up this morning and sent this text to many of my groupies:
"Yesterday was tough. Not gonna sugar coat it but woke up today in better spirits. Think I might be more scared of surgery & pain than the bag itself. I look forward to not having to run to a washroom once this all happens. Maybe I can get the bag in pink or other colours to match my undies! I am lobbying to get a tummy tuck/lypo. Why the heck not if I'm already getting abdominal surgery. Don't know the facts but I'm gonna ask. If I got to go through all this hopefully I can look hotter than ever."
I had a post-op appointment at the cancer clinic this afternoon but with a different doctor as my amazing surgeon (love her!) was elsewhere fighting against cancer. Seems that I'm healing from the inside-out...maybe that's why I feel so much pressure but my question to the doctor was when I'm off the anti-biotics can I have a drink....it's Christmas and I hurt...I just want a drink! She chuckled and explained the proper practices of alcohol and medications but I got a smile and the go ahead.
On the way out I asked the nurses at the desk if I could leave a note for my surgeon since I didn't see her today. The note was hand written with 3 questions that came up since yesterday's call. I think you know question 1 & I hope she laughs but also knows I'm totally serious!
My spirits are higher today but it's because of other people who have set a bright path before me. I have close friends and family who have gone through their own pain so I follow their footsteps to a cancer free life...a better life.
#carly2conquercancer
XOXO
C
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